So, it's been a while..

I've been thinking about you more and more as the 20th nears. You're going to be home soon.. we still haven't spoken much. I feel like I can't summarise the time spent these past months.. but it's had much more ups I want to say than downs. Downs consisting mainly of car accidents (yes, plural) and troubled friends- ups consisting of change of major, awesome jobs, awesome new friends and experiences. I'm not going to act like you haven't been in my thoughts, because you have.. you're an invisible entity in my life, and my thoughts on you are very confused. But there's so much more that goes on beyond that. I have new memories that zoom around my head like a freight train and they're all so wonderful and amazing. Life is strange and new. I'm not the same, but I am. I'm going to be a business major. I haven't lost my interest in teaching and social working, but I don't want to make my living off of that. I'm going to volunteer, performing jobs of that nature for free, and i'm going to make my living through business management/networking. I can't feel guilty about making a profit that way. This last semester has been the hardest I've experienced since my freshman year in college. I am so proud of myself for making it through, my eyes were deep dark skull sockets, my brain----mush, and my limbs---- heeeeavy by the end of it all.. but I pushed through everything and wouldn't let myself give up. The last week (finals week) of the semester I was literally running two stores (Mike and Rosa left me in charge of everything while they were away), finishing up papers i'd received evtensions on, and cramming for finals. I didn't finish until the very last day, but I made it. I have yet to find out what kind of grades I received because I still haven't been able to pay my tuition- But after all that has happened this semester, i'll be proud to have a C. (Although i'm pretty confidant that it's an A or B). I have made a ton of new friends while working in kings park. At the end of every night at work, i'm always deliriously hanging out with one or two of my co-workers. I've made some really strong friendships- (I'm really close to my co-worker Marianna- she's 37 and has two young kids---- and Jade- I worked with her before in Smithtown- and she goes to my school) Vinny D is the bomb, he's so in the closet gay and doesn't even know it, but I love him to death. James and Kevin are sort of my inner possee----They got to meet one of the chicks victora from tila tequila at the eagles pub and hang out with a bunch of lesbians all night-----without me!!! And wow, Dianna, Ricky and Danielle are back on the radar--- and it's been a blast so far. There are so many other people back in the picture it's insane, like Jess, Deefree, Jess Rinn, Janer---- I don't have time to hang out with anyone for too long, so I see them just enough, and it's kinda' fun.. The story of Heather and Elly is simple.. They met.. hung out.. hung out a lot.. really got a long.. hung out even more.. hooked up.. are together. We all knew it was going to happen, ha ha. Mike and Rosa (and Rosa's father Willy) all treat me like family, it's really nice. They taught me how to make up my mind quickly, how to think on my toes, and how to gain respect while still being loved- they are so awesome, I love working for them. I've also learned how to have fun without getting wasted- I mean, I still go out drinking all the time, but it doesn't consume my social life- For instance, one night Heather Elly and I went to the beach at like 1 AM and ran into the water, (Like three times---- it was so cold!!) Elly and I went all the way under, Heather made it to about her knees haha. Another time a bunch of us spent an entire tank of gas singing along to love songs all over the island as if we were a death metal/screamo/hippie-indie/jazz band.. it was a lot of fun. I've shared my songs with some people, and they've shared their songs with me. There are so many experiences I wish you could have been a part of. Even when everything is perfect, every once in a while- it still feels like something is missing. You pop into my head during a lot of those moments- and it's not neccessarily a bad thing, i don't know exactly what to make of it-- I guess I just miss you. It's been a long time kae, I hope all is well. I love you, sleep tight

Mel

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snookyferrit on June 3, 2008 from Smithtown, United States

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