The Beginning - Blogabond

Ok, so here I am, I am reliving a lie. That is called my life, or what my life has become. A life of hate, of malice, of love and war. But what I am talking about? I am talking about my life. It seems as though I've come and gone, lost gained.

I want to be free. And now, there is a chance for that to become a reality, the way I envisioned in school. In summer. I can see it, I can feel it, I can taste. How am I going to get to it? What is going to have to transpire to get to it?

I need to retrieve all of my power, I need to retrieve all of my emotions and my feelins. and my soul. Divine Union.

But freedom comes first.

What does it mean to be free, in this physical? The definition of free is being able to make a decision and then live out the consequences of that decision as it plays out in physicality.

But what happens when the decision does NOT come to fruition and you are forced to live someone else decision and henceforth, live out in full extent with dreary agony, someone ELSEs consequences for that said physical outcome???

Who is to pay for the crime you didn't commit but was pressed upon you like a bug in a fly swatter???

Why YOU of course? And what THEN! You are forced to with the debilitating efforts of an effort that will cripple and debilitate you in repression, and you then feel as though you can never come out of it, or never again reexperience that same event and maybe be able to actually make the choice in physicality, that way YOU wanted it in first time!

SO now, through ascension, my boat is coming around again and I have the opportunity once again to rexperience everything from a more clearer perspective.

In a more deeper way, more so than I did before, as deep as I felt it.

Some things have changed, some things are different but I hope this time, with my intent to hold onto my dreams and hopes and wishes of true authentic freedom.

WHO WAS IT THAT SAID FREEDOM ISN'T LIVING LIKE A GYPSY!!!!

Well, if you are able to manifest places to sleep, enough to eat, always what you need when you need it, then you are.

If you are doing something that brings you joy, then you are doing it.

If you are being paid to play music so that becomes your source of income, then...

YOU ARE DOING IT!!!!!

I can hear the echoes of my parents in my ears now, but what have their voices been to me in my entire life!!!

Voices of repression, aggression, slavery and USERY!!!

I CAN NOT LIVE LIKE THIS ANY LONGER!!!!

I WILL NOT LIVE LIKE THIS ANY LONGER!!!!!

I WILL BE FREE!!!!!

I WILL BE FREE!!!!

OF THEM OF THE PAST OF THEIR WORDS OF THEIR LIVES OF THEIR LIES WAYS OF LIFE