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When I woke this morning, I had to throw myself out of bed. I didn't want to go to class. I felt depressed and agitated. It felt as if school was in the opposite direction from where I needed to be. I went anyway. In class, I could barely concentrate. I took notes, but I didn't take them in. I felt distracted. I decided during break just to go home. On the way home, (like on the way to school) I was listening to "down" by metric. "I wonder if you can come and help me, I want to get from here to there"- I pulled into the driveway and felt as though hell's gate was about to open. I walked in the door and saw heff on the phone, she was speaking to Laurie. (Kelly's mom). Elly was next to her, holding her head.

When I woke in the morning, nothing made sense.. I didn't know why I was depressed, I haven't woken that way in a while. When I got to school I couldn't make sense of the urge to leave and drive back home. I couldn't make sense of anything until I saw Heather awake before 11 and on the phone. I knew at that moment that something was wrong. I knew that what Heather had to say, I wouldn't want to hear. When she got off the phone she told me what happened.

Later on that day at work Laurie called me. (I'd left a message with chris (Kelly's brother) earlier that day). She told me that Kelly's heart was only operating at twenty percent. She told me that Kelly was being transfered to Mount saini hospital. I was so shocked, I didn't know what to say or do. I found some words- after our second conversation I hung up the phone and just cried. Later that night Heff, Elly and I picked Keith up to tell him. We sat in the steam room at port jeff and talked for a while.

She's made her death bed, and climbed in. I want to hate her, but I can only cry for her. I want her to pull through, I want to say, "Bus, you idiot, pull yourself out of this!" I want to say, "You don't have a choice, you can't die, I still haven't made your birthday sundae.." I want to tell her that I love her. She hung out with Rob last night, (KP's boyfriend). She OD'd on heroine, nobody knows how long she was lying there. Her mother found her in the morning. She was in bed.

I'm waiting for Laurie to call me back, until then, we're just left to wonder. Have we lost her or can we take her home?

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snookyferrit on March 29, 2008 from Smithtown, United States

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